I wish you well.

Lately I have been thinking about people... people in my past... people in my present that I am friends with...
Have you ever looked at the life that someone you had feelings for, whether they were reciprocated or not, and think, could I have made them that happy? Would I have broken their heart? Would I be the one they kiss goodnight still or would we have crashed and burned?
Everything happens for a reason and whether or not I am still friends with someone from the past, I wish them well.

"I just want to hold my butt for awhile."

"Don't need to poop. No thank you."
No, thank you kid. :) always entertaining that little boy.

I want to babble about smells. Smells that remind you of places and people and things...

Walked past a dry cleaner today and the breeze hit the smell coming out of the open doors and I instantly thought "that smells like Grandma Z's house... the one on the brick road." I always loved that smell even though I haven't smelt it in 15 years and could never put my finger on what it smelt like...
Clean pressed laundry.
Yum.

The smell of the store 'Hot Topic' has always reminded me of moving to Florida from New York in the backseat of my moms Volare... likemelted crayons and sunshine and happy times. It is some kind of perfume or incense they sell in that store, I figured that much out. But I just want to remember being a little kid when I smell it.

The smell of hemp fabric and strong coffee will always remind me of my long lost friend Phil... Jovan White Musk will always remind me of my friend Erika... good smelling shampoo makes me think of my sister... and so on.

Lavender baby shampoo is the best though... reminds me of when stuff was simple and before all the chaos happened that shook up my world... when my little guy was a baby and we were happy, or so it seemed. My mom washes his hair with it at her house and when she does, I always sniff my little mans hair and smile.

hello there.

I deleted that last blog. It was much too bleak and you as my reader need something lighthearted as a starting point...
My son said to me last night "Mommy, after I'm a girl, I am gonna be a dog so I can stick my tongue out when I'm happy."
yes, my little boy thinks he will grow up and be a girl... then a dog.
*insert future gay reference*
which is totally fine with me, as long as he is happy and always loves his Mommy.
I spent the evening in bed eating a salad and watching 'Breakfast at Tiffany's'. Been on an Audrey biography kick so I figured, why the heck not, I own the movie. Was a good evening.
We went to the science museum with my sister and her kids and my mom this weekend. Somehow I remember that place being A LOT more awesome when I was little. Even the kids were bored. But they had a giant mouth we could walk through and we got a photo-op in the fake tree in the kids area so all is well.
I have a sinus headache. Have had it for a good week now. And since the CT Scan told me I have excess sinus tissue, I am in fear it's something worse. My face shouldn't feel like this. It sucks. I get queasy and feel like I am going to fall over face first and I know that isn't normal!